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Eternity Complex is the story about a girl called Fae, the people she meets, and the adventure she has as she tries to figure out why she's been whisked away to a mystifying and often frightening new world.

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2nd Mar 2015, 4:07 PM in Chapter14
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zartala
How much does Adrik trust Enya? How much should Adrik trust Enya? One of those questions will be answered by the end of the chapter ;)

Almost a year ago I wrote a really long, ramble-y post on one part of my life that leaked into Eternity Complex, wrong first impressions. At the time, I slightly mentioned my issue with trust in that post but never really went too deep with it. Well, I guess it's something about this time of year, because I'm feeling like rambling a little more (but I'll try to keep this post much shorter).

Trust is another one of those things that stumbled it's way into the story due to the environment I grew up in. I spent my childhood trusting the wrong people and suffered the consequences as a result. And, part of that experience has made me really marvel at people who are capable of trusting others unquestionably without having the other party break that trust (I marvel a lot less now that I'm in a much better situation, but I still marvel a bit). Out of all the character dynamics that appear, I think I explored trust the most visibly in the relationship between Adrik and Enya. I think part of that is due to the fact that they've known each other the longest and part of that is because they've been in the cast from the very beginning. Now whether the trust between the two is based on my life experience or idealization or somewhere in between is yet to be revealed but it's one of those things that pops up from time to time.

I hope that my rambling doesn't affect how you've been viewing the story so far. I just had a bunch of free days off from school due to weather last week and felt like rambling as a result. It's never my intent to make any of the reoccurring themes in Eternity Complex stand out in the writing and I never started writing with any themes in mind. But, as I've gotten older, I've come to realize just how much of my own life experiences and thoughts have transferred over into what I'm writing. When I was younger I plotted out the story by thinking, "wouldn't it be cool if..." and, "I really like it when other stories do X so I want to try and do X" without putting a lot of thought into why those things resonated with me. First and foremost, though, I want Eternity Complex to be an enjoyable fantasy adventure story. Everything else is secondary. I have always hated reading books that beat the reader over the head with the author's intent (Scarlet Letter I'm looking at you) and I hope my story never does that. I've always felt and still feel that what the audience gets from a story supersedes authorial intent and so as long as your happy with the story, I'm happy.

Thanks for reading my ramble-y mess and thanks for reading Eternity Complex! <3
User comments:
Spelledeg edit delete reply
Spelledeg
Ohh, that went different than I was expecting, I still have needles out for Enya but that is a positivr shift...hopefully. It's interesting that only one of the remaining Demis is water though.

Trust is such an interesting thing to portray, I think its cool how you've been able to experiment and explore different kinds of trust in this comic so far too. I do the same to an extent, though I think all artists pull ftom themselves :) I love experimenting with relationship dynamics -- back to Enya and Adrik though ...I think she'll be trustworthy for this...if for her gain If nothing else.
zartala edit delete reply
zartala
Be careful, Enya is a skilled word smith. I write some of her lines with a dictionary and thesaurus open just to make sure her word choice is appropriate. As opposed to Adrik who just gets the thesaurus treatment for his $10 words. Technically, Enya never lies.

You're totally right about artists pulling from themselves. And it is really cool that art gives us the chance to experiment and explore how we interact with the world. :)

Very interesting that you think that she'll be trustworthy for her gain if nothing else. VERY interesting... ;)
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Spelledeg
...I might just have to go re-read, I'm really curious what other subtleties I've missed then. :')

Enya's got some alternate agenda going on, I think she's got to profit from it for her to put any weight on a choice though...but even if she gets him down. It's kind of hard to say what'll happen after that.
(Really though I'm worried about Adrik, poor grumpy baby)

The pulling from self and experimenting is one of my favorite things about storytelling! It in some ways gives a look to see how people react to different things first hand but in a fictitious setting if you're experimenting with something that you may want to try yourself.(For whatever reason) :D
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Skweeee
I don't find your post "rambling" at all. In fact, this is the kind of thing that makes someone else's work so intriguing to me.

Even for my own comic, over time I've come to see some of it's elements are being generated from within me, and my experiences as well.
zartala edit delete reply
zartala
Glad that you didn't find all that writing rambling. :)

How long did it take you to realize that elements of what you're writing come from within and your experiences? (I ask because to me it looks like you put a lot of thought and self awareness into Piper's Song)

I feel like it took me years to come to that realization about my own work. And I don't know if that has to with how young I was when I started working on this story or a general lack of self awareness on my part. Or some mixture of both.
Skweeee edit delete reply
Skweeee
Hi Zartala!
My turn to ramble on.
Since the idea for Piper's song goes as far back as 2009, I could submit to you that I, as well, have gradually come to the realization over years that the two characters I care about the most in the story are Piper, and Bebber.

My theory is that Piper and Bebber are two very real aspects of myself. As characters go, they are pretty much Ying and Yang. Piper represents; purity, honesty, reason, and compassion, where Bebber represents; fear, anger, brokenness, wildness, and dispair.

I'm glad that I did not figure this out until after I had the entire story mapped out. I think it would have tainted the end result. So the fact that it took me so long to figure it out is a positive thing.

I was diagnosed with PTSD and depression and see a councilor on a regular basis. It was she who had encouraged me to start drawing again, and recently suggested that I look at my work as a retrospective. It's because of this, that seeing your post was so timely. My realization was only in the past couple of weeks, so hence my enthusiasm to talk about this.

I am glad for the slow realization. When I started, all that drove me forward was my excitement at seeing my comic come to life. Accidentally bumping into this 'revelation'
is probably the most beautiful way to discover yourself.

Ramble, complete.
zartala edit delete reply
zartala
That's very interesting. Thanks for sharing! :)

I wish I could respond with an equally thoughtful comment but it's going to take me some time to fully mull over what you've said. I never really thought about how the slow realization of self in art can be a good thing and that's an idea I'd like to explore further. :)